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3/5/18—

5 Mar

Monday motivation starts with coffee and quiet, composition and collection. After the busy weekend, I need to focus on this.  This morning and the moments with self. Focusing on the book, books, new ideas, what I’m teaching today, how to approach today differently in some way– a way that’s more than a way but a solution of sorts. Character, not so much plot.  Hop to my next cognition, my next musing, leaning on Emerson’s teaching me and lectures while I stand in this coffee shop waiting for my breakfast sandwich.  Usually don’t order one but this morning the writer treats himself, returning to studentdom, and his notebooks, his unearthings in pages.

Bringing in some books from garage, re-building my home study after everything being moved out for cleaning post-fires, then back in, then all around to places I can’t locate, I sit with a memoir, and more poetry than I can even skim through.  Two books, the poems.  Not naming authors as I want to focus on the act, the books themselves, what I find in them as a student and the ideas generated.  Told myself in the garage that this Monday is the Monday and day where I change everything…. Get closer to certain goals, or maybe not even closer but rather just devour them.

I propose we make this Monday more wild and free and creatively crazy than anything we’ve ever done.  But, concurrently, demonstrating and actuating containment and poise.  Realize I should probably be writing in the office and not here at the kitchen island.  I am where I am.  I’m here for something in the story’s autonomous intention.  Riven with thought, now in this chair.  My academic hemisphere becoming more clear, more coherent and known about me, by me.  Looking for something this morning, in my students, in my studies, in the tangibility of me as an educator.  That’s what’s motivating me, should you know.  Now I know.

The quiet of my writing hut centers and calms me, gives way to more composition, more urgency in my exploration of poetic aesthetic, of poetry itself.  And I see my little tributary to reason.  Through that.  What is your tributary, reader?  What are you after?  What is your singular seek?

Morning starts rough,

2 Mar

get rough with the day, and create more wildly than you ever, ever have.

article

12 Feb

View story at Medium.com

poz thoughts

12 Feb

…take yourself there.  Treat yourself.  I’m in a bit of logomachy with self, in the idea of bringing self “there”.  What if I’m already there?  What if I have to do less than I thought, in terms of mood, attitude, mode, inner-voice?  Disputing with self over self, and the self I am versus where I could go, goals and spending more time with my babies after a change in work life… building my business and writing down absolutely everything and studying my everything, my entire world and the transactions that take place.  And this isn’t just ME, it’s WE.  It’s all of us.  Advancing my composition of self, thinking critically, again to use another English teacher speak-slice, about your story.  Interesting that an English class can be utilized as an appreciative lens for everything around you.  You… your story, your day, your week.

What do you want?  How will you get it.  By moving.  Not stopping.  Not letting your moods slow you and not letting anyone else put a single word in your manuscript’s body.  What you want is attainable.  More attainable and proximal than you think, trust me.  And I’m only now realizing this.  Go get what you want, starting today.  What do you want?  Write that in your journal.  Don’t worry about how to get it… just go grab it.  This meditation has worked, already.  I’m ready for class, I’m ready for them, I’m ready for me and my ideas.  MY ideas have value, as they are wildly and wholly positive, yay-saying.  What am I teaching… writing, writing to you, writing not affirmation but realities, solid self vows, that you will get what you want and you will defeat time with time itself…

Building the day

5 Feb

starts with your first thought and the moods you let be established.

Family.

24 Jan

First!

Let family motivate and propel you further into your projects and work toward creative and business sovereignty.