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At home, waiting for

9 Jan

the air duct cleaner guy.

I hate waiting.

But, I’m not waiting.

I’m working while he’s on his way.

Never wait.

Always be with moving wheels.


17 Nov

With the limited time remaining in Fall term, I turn to singularity, as I’ve stressed since Week 1.  Revolve around an autonomous concept.  Wrote that mine, yesterday, was “Everything”.  But this morning, I feel it’s ‘Learning’.  Every day is a learning wheel, a self-educating roar of revelation.  I’m learning patience, with this whole hotel stay, and humility, and to write absolutely every detail down…. Your circumstances should never be scorned, but utilized to forward you, to push you to your ‘There’.  If you’re just laying now, or sitting coma’d on your phone, STOP.  Write something down.  I have to remind myself of this often, so in no way am I the paradigm.  There’s so much to learn about yourself, so much you don’t know and that your character and story are eager to accent and pronounce to you for your furtherment.

And overthinking.  Why.  What am I overthinking for right now?  Why am I wishing for Newness when where I am and what I’m doing and how I got here is ALL Newness.  Again, praise your moment, don’t punish yourself for being in it.  Use it.  Write about it.  Use the time you have to draw, be at your drawing board, understand what it is you want and how you plan on getting there.  But you’ll have to move.  If your method of collection and meditation isn’t writing then find what it is.  TEACH YOURSELF.  You ARE your best teacher, assuredly.  Think about what you see yourself doing, forever.  You get up early, later in life, for what…. You take work home with you because you are a…..  Think.  Know what it is you want, fully.  Get to know YOU better, and you will be at your apex, your creative and occupational summit.

I share these notes for self ‘cause I believe them.  Not that I think I’m brilliant, clever, or even slightly smart.  But I do want something for me, my family.  If I would have just laid in this hotel bed, unable to sleep and knowing I could be getting something done but rather watch something on that cheap-looking TV or be on my phone playing some game or scrolling down some feed, I’d be harming myself, my kids, wife.  So I work.  I want to be ALWAYS working, always creating.  Do the same for you…. Test yourself.  Push yourself harder.  Get closer to that frame, that picture, that reality you want to one day relish.

Fancy yourself one day successful.  More scored than you ever throught you’d be.  What’s the one practice that took you there?  Movement.  Action… actuation…. Migrating from the idle to the tireless.  Try it.  Or don’t.  Either way, there will be a return, a ripple in your cosmos.  And you will have no other election than to live with it.

05:37…. Water, no.  Coffee, yes.  This is odd, living in a hotel room.  But this morning I see the oddity as a treat, a gift from the story, my story.  I think the Rumi quote reads something like.. “Act as though the entire universe is rigged in your favor..” Or something like that.  That’s how I’m seeing this all.  I woke a bit under an hour ago and couldn’t fall back into that odd winery dream I was having.  I thought, “Goddamnit, now what.” Then, Alice’s alarm sounded for her to rise and run to her bootcamp or whatever class off Coffey.  So the way I interpret this morning’s progression is that it was all for me, all so I could be in this chair writing this.  That I’m learning… I’m learning that there is no reason for nay.  There should only be notes and whole jazzy pieces of yay.


27 Sep

Let’s see what I can write and post in under five minutes, before driving, or speeding, to the winery.  In love, this morning.  With the morning itself.  I find it encouraging and revealing, wildly and robustly educating.  Don’t fight or reject the morning, PLEASE.  It’s there to be used as a tone-establisher for your day.  Why be nay when you can be yay, with the morning, or anything?  More and more, I see the classroom as a stark symbol for everything in our lives.  You make the class what you do, and do can be effectuated with every day.

Enjoy your day.  Demand from it.  Or rather, don’t demand, just direct it which way you want it to go.  I’m only now, at my old age, seeing it as that simple.



DAY 1 — Puissance (1/20/16)

20 Jan

Know your own story before you read someone else’s.

Who can “inspire” you?  Someone else…  Or YOU?

Critical Thinking…  What does that mean?  How does it differ from just ‘thinking’?

It’s difficult, but record everything.. use the holstered journal.. be ready, be armed.

iamatology: study of remedies.  Study your own written remedies, find more, use them, instruct yourself on how to self-heal with paragraphs, narration (much of what this semester’s about).

Maybe you shouldn’t ask so many questions and just go find the answers yourself…?img_0829

Freewriting, may just be for the sake of doing so or it may quake to some tremendous composition.  And think of the work more closely, the provinces of the idea, to free-write.  Yes I write it as one word only because I cringe at ever separating the concepts of ‘free’ and ‘write’, even if it’s proper, or some kind of standardized something.  But don’t discount yourself when scribbling erratically in your Composition Books— it could lead to something, it could lead to some remedy…..  It could lead to a sterling stretch of Self-Education (what I believe to be the most truthful form of educating).  Be your own force, in your writing, what ideas you bring to class and share with your colleagues.  Be what YOU know you have to be…

When you write, hope to be out of breath.

Gift yourself elevated goals, ones challenging and inwardly vocal.  And don’t be afraid of not reaching them.  Don’t entertain not reaching them.  that’s not a possibility in this new mind.  What is possible, and wildly likely, is holding what you sought upon the term’s close.

And once more, what’s your story?  What have you seen?  What have you lived and what do you want?

Don’t worry if you lose and idea, or can’t write it down.  You’ll have the opportunity later.  And if you don’t, it wasn’t meant to be written.  Don’t force the ideas.  Or, not all the time, anyway.  You have to live.  You can’t always be at the keys, in front of your Composition Book.  And I know that this may seem like a bit of a ramble but it’s one meant to assure you that you ARE capable of generating ideas worth writing, ideas that deserve to be heard by the rest of the class.  And by myself.

You can walk away with whatever you want to, from this class.  The experience can be whatever you want it to.

And let me return to remedy.  Study your own patterns for producing them through your writing.  And don’t stop.  Don’t get tired.  Use everything around you for inspiration.  Even the small notes you rush in the corner of one of your notebook’s pages is valuable.  Throw away nothing.  Be a packrat with your work.  Who knows when you might return to a particular entry, by accident or purpose.

Today.. we explore Morals, Morality in ‘Road’…

22 Jan

Where do we see these characters’ Morals, and beliefs, and codes by which they conduct themselves? Sal, how he talks to Terry.. with Dean and his presence or complete lack thereof. And why someone would do this, just go on the Road with no real aim in mind. What does that indicate about their MORALS? And us, our morals, what we hold ourselves to.. is it a code as they say? Is it consistent? What is a ‘Moral Code’? What is Sal’s Moral code when it comes to working, and Remi’s with Art and Life and Sal… The Morals of this book are situational, they are not consistent, and I argue that’s precisely what Kerouac wants us to entertain and value in this book– situational Morality.. think about it, if you’re in a situation or predicament, or dilemma with a dire nature, your Morality will change, and if not for sure, you would certainly entertain a different approach that might go against your moral regularity.. Morals of the Road are ever-changing, and give way to more flexible “spirit”. “I forgave everybody, I gave up, I got drunk.” (77)

Now, with us, as writers and students and readers, we have to ask “What do we see as ‘morally just’, or ‘right’?” This will open more doors as we read through this novel, and answer some questions for us as to why the characters act the way they do.. Possible topic: “Jack Kerouac’s novel shows the Beat morality’s outline…” OR, “Sal Paradise’s morals are shaped by the amorality of the ‘real world’.”
Feel free to play with this idea of Morality as its presence in the book, and get back to us! Let us know what you’re thinking and what you’re writing! And enjoy your interpretations! -Mike … PS– “Music is moral law. It gives soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and charm and gaiety to life and to everything.” -Plato

Notes to self (teaching)

2 Jan

Next semester: challenge the
word ‘literature’– use ‘writing’, or ‘text’
Instead, see how students react, to
conceptual overtones… (English 5)

The story being written: our semester’s
mentality… (Both classes)

Consider ‘Moveable Feast’ as a
collection of independent pieces,
not a continuous work (consider as
continuous at book’s completion)